today i feel a little sad about not catching the rainbow by its tail. it was magnificent. vibrant, glowing hoop against dark grey stormy sky, bowing to the feet of Empire State building. it was not what i expected. i wanted saturated blue skies with fluffy clouds as a background for my monthly picture with Leo. today he turns 4 months. in Barcelona i got a perfect outfit for him to wear today – off-white romper with red balloon on it. i also bought real red balloons, and wanted Leo’s dad to hold him high against the sky, with 4 balloons in his little chubby hand, so i can make this perfect picture for his little birthday. but we woke up to the dull rain tapping on our window and not a chance of a happy blue in the sky.
“it’s not important”, one might say. just a picture, just 4 month, not even a real birthday. but not for me. i was raised thinking that there is nothing more important than a birthday. and that memories and timely surprises are more important than useful and pre-ordered gifts. at the end, memories is all we will have left.
so i went to my photo equipment storage with stack of background papers and picked the one to match the missing blue sky. i grabbed couple sheets of white paper and cut out fluffy clouds (remembering how much i used to love working with scissors!). i blew up a red balloon and tied up a tiny pretty bow on it. this is what Leo will remember about today – this one picture where he is floating in a paper sky between paper clouds, in a cute romper with a red balloon.
and suddenly the rainbow came out from nowhere, and i thought – how beautiful! wouldn’t it be even better than paper skies and clouds? but rainbow stayed there for couple minutes only and then disappeared into the dull grey, without a trace. i am a little sad i was not able to catch it for Leo. but i am happy he will still have a little memory of this little birthday.
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